You need to reevaluate your situation.' And I needed to reevaluate my relationship with God too. And it took me a long time to be like, 'Yeah, Cortney, you suck. I had to accept the criticism that I was receiving. A little bit of it was some editing things, but I was never allowed to even say that because of the contractual obligations and things, but I had to accept my behavior. A lot of the bad stuff especially, not during the experiment itself, but then during the spinoffs, when I had to answer for some of my behavior, I couldn't blame it all on editing. A lot of social media helped me kind of see that. I see the error in my ways, which was a tough cookie to handle. I know, in retrospect, that might not seem very young to other people, especially if they got married or grew up differently, but I'm completely different now than I was then. I was 26 when I went through the experiment he was 27. Some of these people were like, 'Oh, I'm not attracted to him.' That's your own fault because you were asked, and if you didn't say the truth, that's your own fault.Īnd that's really what it all came down to and we were relatively young. And then the physical stuff, she straight-up asked - she said, 'What are you attracted to? Say what you like, say what you don't like, and don't be a brat about it,' I guess. And so that was another important thing, I wanted to be taken care of. And I wanted a partner, and there were certain things that I wanted the man in my life to take care of.

Well, what I realized is I might not need one, but I want one. And I usually had the attitude of, 'Oh, I don't need a man.' So Logan, the sexologist - she's not on there anymore, but I think it's more appropriate to call her a sex educator now - she really asked the things about gender roles which before that, I didn't realize were as important as they were because I've always been very strong and independent because I was raised that way.

I said, 'Oh yeah, I want him to make four times as much as I did.' Well, that was unrealistic for me to say, but it didn't work out that way, but those were important questions.

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